Wednesday, October 17, 2007
cried lyk hell in class today..cried lyk as if someone had died.. cried until my cheeks and table are all drenched with my tears..seriously..my table was flooded. lyk as if I jus poured some water on it..sobbed all the way while my form teacher was explaining how to check our paper..thk God no one tried to comfort me. if they did, I will end up scolding and not thanking them. irritated la. Ya..mean rite? oni at certain times then can comfort me..i mood swing la
hmm, jus gotten all of my results and did VERY badly. VERY. haiz..oni my malay improved. from B4 to A2. no. no 'YAYs!'..my MS suck. still haven got my eng subject yet..I reali dowan go NA. got all those b****es and I will surely die if i go there. My parents will scold me lyk HELL. duno how to tell them. haiz.. did VERY badly in Term 3..and now in EOY???
wow. Im reali stupid. I am. or was I slacking?
but studied really hard. REALLY. I dun think I was slacking since i studied THAT hard. which means.. I AM stupid. okok..I'll stop saying that..might come true..
hmm..I really, really, really, really dowan go NA.. i dowan to see all those b****es and I dowan to die early. Im still young you noe.. oni 13. okok. not funny.
I'm so sad that I haven spoken..
and she's so pretty and she's so sure.
Yes, I'm not as clever as a girl lyk her...
these little wounds would never be mend.
I was shamed.
secret was leaked.
and I trusted them?
now I can never trust anyone.
again.
How I wish I could go away and never come back again.
Keep on asking if i was okay.
so, I lied that I am.
and tried to put my injuries all in the dust.
tried to smile even though it hurts.
It's really difficult.
all those feelings being shoved deeper inside.
everytime I tried to smile.
It really hurts more each time.
hmm?
Siti
posted at 6:03 PM
